Day one

Today is the first day of irritation. Everyone everywhere is annoying me and I can't help but bite my tongue.
I don't know. Does everything just go wrong. I'm just tired of dealing with people not caring.

Looking up

My thoughts are getting better. I'm not thinking so impure I'm actually feel happy.
But for some reason I still hope to be hit by a tractor trailer. To free me from this day, this pain, this body, these thoughts, this mind.

Full moon

I don't wear my seatbelt because I'm ok if I die. It's not that I want to die or would kill myself or harm anyone. But I'm at that point where I've accepted death and I don't have much going for me. Nobody cares about me as much as I care about them.
Life is a never ending battle.
A battle that I'm done getting ready for, and fighting for.

Date night

Went out on our first date of the year! Woop Woop! It was very nice. Then when to movies with my brother and his family.
I miss days like that. Where he shows that he really cares. I feel like I try so hard to look so good and he turns the other way.