Death on a toilet.

On Friday I was cleaning up my favorite resident and he fell off the toilet to his knees. I tried to pick him up but he was very big. The LPN came in and we laid him on the ground slowly and rested his head on a pillow. When the RN came we rolled him over on his back and pronounced him dead. This was very hard to deal with. They think he had a heart attack. We (the staff) were his family.
I miss him so much and blame myself for his death.
It was hard to watch a DNR take his last breaths and be able to do nothing.