I guess i just wanted somewhere to write everything. i always feel bad telling my husband how unhappy i am. i promise that it has nothing to do with him it just everything that i have going on in my life and i feel like i keep taking on more and more. i wasn't always this depressing person. i used to be called smiley now im called, grumpy.
my husband is my best friend and i tell him everything but i am such a paranoid person and am starting to feel like maybe i shouldn't be telling him everything. he truly is the best thing that could have happened to me.
so why am i unhappy? you got me? my depression started two years ago. I've been on and off meds for it right now currently on. and i think that need to up it. maybe its just what i believe in and how i take everything everyone says to heart? or all the stress in my life i dont know? maybe this economy really just sucks ass right now and it really is affecting me.
I have no social life, I'm a full time college student working full time and before that was working two jobs and before that was working two full time jobs and planing a wedding. i just want to delete this whole thing and say screw it. im not sure what im looking to get out of the 'blogging' thing. i thing. i think every time i want to rant i might just do it on here. or if i have a random question it will end up on here. so we will see.
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